Misty Days Are Here To Stay

And Now, a Quiz!

2009-12-10T15:14:32Z

Here is a picture we took while filming yesterday. If you can spot Britty in this picture, you win a prize!

Unwell

2009-12-04T21:26:19Z

Something is definatly wrong with me. Somehow the fact that I spelled "definatly" out instead of abbriviating it (like I normally do) should be everyone's first clue.

I can't sleep at night for one thing. So I'm tired all the time, and no one understands why because "... you aren't working, why on Earth would you be tired???" Ugh. I feel like I've become irritating in some way that eludes me. A few of my friends have very randomly stopped talking to me or even making eye contact. Not friends I'm crazy about or anything, it's just odd. My good friends are still acting the same.

I keep doing special favors for people and running all over town to help them get things done that they can't do because they're working, and I'm using lots of gas and money to help. I believe in the projects, so that isn't the issue. The problem is that I'm doing stuff for others to the point of exhaustion. Yesterday I had a "fall out," which is what I call "running too much, not sleeping and not eating right to the point of getting all shakey and crying." Hasn't happened in a really long time, so I tried to chill a little more today. Still worn out. I need to watch Amadeus. That movie is so long that I can get a good rest in while watching it.

I keep forgetting important stuff, too. I had a late credit card payment, a first for me. The worst though is that I forgot Tera's birthday. I was bummed all day about that one. I mean, unconsolable. So Tera, if you're reading this, I'm so sorry. I now wish you a very, very happy birthday and may all your dreams come true. A little cliche, but that's what any card would have said if I got you one.

Sometimes I wonder if I have done something wrong to the point of being beyond redemption. So many bad things keep happening. I woke up crying from the worst nightmare I've had in years on Thanksgiving morning. It was about my family being completely ripped apart. I woke up and cried for a long time, went back to sleep and had an even worse dream. My body was so tired it tried to sleep again. But I could sense another bad dream coming and I woke myself up and stayed up the whole morning reading. I feel like something dark is coming for me.

At many times in our lives, we have cycles. Good, then bad, then back to good again. My bad cycle seems to be lasting a lot longer this time. But if the good outweighs the bad (and I ultimately believe that it does,) then I have to have patience and wait for the good again. And if I truly believe what I just said, then I have to be willing to wait and in the meantime, do all I can to make good happen in the lives of others.

Stolen Thingie

2009-11-24T16:38:03Z

Stealing is fun! Doing these reminds me of the good ole days of MySpace!

1. first name
Brittney

2. age
24

3. location
Louisville, KY

4. occupation
Recently laid off, but I was working for Zoeller Pump Company

5. partner
OMGstopaskingItoldyouIdidn'twannatalkaboutit!!!!!!!

6. kids
I don't have any

7. brothers/sisters
Legally, I have a 1/2 brother. But we were not raised together and he's really annoying and stuff, and he mostly just stirs up trouble.

8. pets
Two kitties, and soon I'm going to buy rats! YAY! I'm going to name them Franz and Gustav.

9. 3-5 biggest things going on right now

1) Finding a job
2) Trying to get life straightened out
3) Trying to write four stories at once!

10. parents
Married 32 years!

11. closest friends
My IRL friends: Billy, Jimmy, Jon
My Interweb friends: Dren, Tera Moon, Floan

OC Profile

2009-11-05T18:50:16Z

Since Drennie and Lyka did OC character profiles, I'm going to do one too <3 The first one is Julie from "Tilt."

Name: Juliana D. White
Nickname: Julie
Gender: Female
Orientation: Heterosexual
Significant Other: Tommy Walker
Height: 5'2"
Build: Slender
Eyes: Dark blue
Hair: Naturally blonde
Age: 26
D.O.B.: February 13
Occupation: Journalist
Hobby: Music, record-collecting, writing poetry
Residence: Lives alone in a little apartment

Food: Mostly eats fruit, sandwiches, and pizza when she can afford it. Enjoys drinking coke on occasion but mostly drinks either water or coffee.

Usual Attire: Flowing shirts, bellbottom jeans, sandals. More formal attire for work. Mostly wears purple or white shirts.

Personality: Kind, patient, considerate, loving, punctual, well-spoken.

Likes: Reading, music, discussing world issues, looking at maps, travel, jellybeans, swimming.

Dislikes: Being late, arguing, closed-mindedness.

Favorite Quote: "The writer who produces more than he reads, sure mark of an amateur."
-Abbe de Coulmier

History: Read Tilt! Everything you need to know about her is in the story!

Noms

2009-11-05T18:07:59Z

My favorite person to have lunch with <3

My Porn Collection

2009-11-04T18:21:51Z

You like???

How things work in the real world

2009-10-31T20:12:09Z

I've been told my whole life about how there are two ways that things work:

1. The way things go in my head

and

2. The way things work in the real world

The way things go in my head seem far more realistic, I guess. In my head, I'd like to think I'm a good person, hard working and caring. I want to think that's how other people think of me too, but yesterday, we see how the real world thinks of me. It was the day to celebrate Halloween at work and I was pretty excited. I dressed up like Alex from "A Clockwork Orange" and about six people actually knew who I was! The rest thought I was Charlie Chaplin from some reason . . . . retards.

So it was fun, hanging out and looking at all the other costumes and such. Goofed around a lot all day, got lots of candies from people, etc. At the end of the day, I got a call from the HR department who asked me if I could come downstairs for a second. No prob, I wasn't busy. I go downstairs and there is my supervisor sitting with Bob, the HR director. They ask me to shut the door and have a seat. I do. They immediately tell me that they are "terminating the employer relationship." WTF?!?!?! So I'm fired from my job. They told me it was due to "not meeting company standards." In other words, being on time everyday, getting my work done with no help and answering the phones more than anyone in my department counted for absolutely nothing over the last 14 months. They were like, "You're not a bad person and we think you did the best you could, but this job just isn't a good fit for you." They told me I was eligible for unemployment and that they wished me a lot of luck and that I could visit anytime. I said I'd come in Monday for my things and they said no, I had to get them today. They made me wait in the office with them until everyone left, then I had to get my things and leave. They watched me get my stuff like I was a convict, making sure I wasn't stealing anything. Cocksuckers.

Then I walked out and cried and cried most of the day. In my mind, I was doing the best I could, but in the real world that didn't matter. Makes me wonder which is right. I have to fit the standards of the world in order to succeed in the workplace and such, but those standards don't make sense to me. Somedays that makes me feel confused. Which is correct? I sought advice from a friend. I told him that my family cast a pretty big shadow. My dad has noy had very many jobs, and kept each of them until the places closed down. He worked hard his whole life and never got in trouble. At his last job he was given no sick or personal time, thus he never missed a day. EVER. He left early the day I was born, that was it. So here I am, getting fired from jobs more than once, and quitting the ones that were truly awful. My dad didn't have these problems, so I feel like a loser from struggling so hard. I really do.

I really thought that I'd be further than this at 24. I did! But I guess Tyler Durden was right. The media makes things look like our lives will ultimately end up with some sort of fame and fortune, but it's unlikely. That's how things work in the real world. In my head, I'd love to be a famous writer; that's been my dream since I was 14. Ten years later, I still want that. How can I make it happen? In my mind it doesn't seem hard, but the real world tries daily to kill the dream.

I guess some advice would be in order. I need real world advice, but also advice from the heart. Do you think you'll get what your heart desires? Can it happen if I work hard enough to make it happen? I think so. Because if I don't believe in it, the real world wins. And my sanity cannot handle such a thing.

Meme thing, stole from Dren

2009-10-16T13:15:43Z

1. You're on my friends list, I want to know 35 things about you. Even if we never talk, or if we already know everything about each other. Short and sweet is fine.
2. Comment here with your answers and repost the questionnaire on your own journal.

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
05) Favorite vegetable?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
09) Worst Habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favorite sport?
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What color eyes do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Bottle or can soda?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
26) What's your favorite place to hang out at?
27) Do you believe in ghosts?
28) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
29) Do you swear a lot?
30) Biggest pet peeve?
31) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
32) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
33) Favourite and least favourite food?
34) Do you believe in God?
35) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

Filled. With. Rage.

2009-10-14T19:05:08Z

I am so angry at my friend right now *icon relevant*

I have exactly one girl friend. All the rest of my friends are guys. I always cherished that about our friendship, the fact that she was the only one who was not only a girl, but understood that I'm not really a "conventional" girl (no makeup 98% of the time, I don't carry a purse, I dress sort of guy-ish, etc) and that she really "got" me and my strange sense of humor. I'd had a good girl friend before, but we had a falling out. We made up and everything seemed back to normal, and when she went to college she never spoke to me again. I was heartbroken.

Over the years, we have confided a lot with each other about things we (literally) never told anyone else. So last week I told her something very, very personal that was bothering me because I knew I could trust her. WRONG. At 9am this morning, I got a phone call from an unknown number. It was my friend's mom. She was like, "I need to talk to you about something serious. Do you have a minute?"

I told her I was at work but I had a minute if it was something serious. She then proceeds to tell me about how my friend told her all my problems and she wanted to talk to me about them. I was livid. I told her I was taking care of it and I didn't want to talk to her about it. She kept insisting in a passive aggressive way that I answer her questions, and I told her NO WAY. So at the end of the most uncomfortable phonecall ever, she commented, "Maybe I handled this the wrong way." Then she told me she loved me. OMG.

So if I seem a little tense, it's because NOTHING in my life is going right at the moment. I am so ticked I can't stand it. How should I handle this? I could really use some advice right now.

Halloween Costume

2009-10-13T02:05:42Z

I made a few this year, but here's my favorite one <3

Make up: not just for girls anymore!

2009-10-13T02:01:03Z

I've been working on SFX makeup lately. I did this to my friend the other day and I think it turned out well. You like???

Meme

2009-10-05T16:03:37Z

I stole these from Dren and Tera Moon, hope they doesn't press charges!

1 word quiz.
You
Can
Only
Type
One
Word
Not as easy as you may think.

1. Where is your cell phone?
Pocket

2. Boyfriend/girlfriend?
ARG

3. Your hair?
Brown

4. Your mother?
Work

5. Your father?
Asleep

6. Your favorite thing?
Writing

7. Your dream last night?
Scary

8. Your favorite drink?
Water.

9.Your dream car?
Mustang.

10. The room you're in?
Cubicle

11. Your ex?
James

12. Your fear?
Clowns!

14. Where were you last night?
Filming

15. What you're not right now?
Coherent

16. Muffins?
Nom

17. One of your wish list items?
Vacation!

18. Where you grew up?
Louisville

19. The last thing you did?
Type

20. What are you wearing?
Work-clothes (Two-word hyphenate)

21.Whats on TV?
Squat

22.Your pet or pets?
Kittehs

23. Your computer?
Fast! (the one at work is, lol)

24.Your Life?
Fresh

25.Your Mood?
Aggitated

26. Missing someone?
Yes

28. Your car?
Ford <3

29. Your work?
Office

31. Like someone?
Yes :D

32. Your favorite color?
Black

33. When is the last time you laughed?
Earlier

-------

1.YOUR REAL NAME:
Brittney

2.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME:(mother and fathers middle names)
Rae Leonard

3.NASCAR NAME:(first name of your mother's dad, father's dad)
Ralph Roxie

4.STAR WARS NAME:(the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name)
Mun Br (LOL)

5.DETECTIVE NAME:(favorite color, favorite animal)
Black Kitten (nice)

6.SOAP OPERA NAME:(middle name, first street you ever lived on)
Nicole Sylvania

7.SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd fav color, fav drink, add "THE" to the beginning)
The Green Dr. Pepper

8.FLY GIRL/GUY NAME:(first 2 letters of 1st name, last 2 letters of your last name)
Brey (that's pretty cool)

9.HOOD NAME:(favorite ice cream flavor, favorite cookie)
Chocolate Snickerdoodle (LOL)

10.YOUR GANGSTA NAME:(first 3 letters of last name, add izzle to the end)
Munizzle (almost sounds like my nizzle, lol)

11. YOUR GOTH NAME:(write in black, and the name of one of your pets)
Black Fluffy (Sounds like a bad fetish, lol)

12. ROCK STAR NAME: (current pet's name, current street name)
Fluffy Capella (lame)

13. YOUR HIPPIE NAME: (what you ate for breakfast plus favorite tree)
Pancake Hickory (That's pretty sweet)

14. YOUR CRIMINAL NAME: (name of your favorite perfume/cologne, favorite candy bar)
Light Blue Whatchamacallit (Not a very scary criminal name)

15. YOUR CARTOON NAME: (favorite fruit plus garment you’re wearing, with an “ie” or “y” added)
Apple Hoodie (COOL)

16. YOUR SPY NAME (favorite season/ favorite flower)
Autumn Carnation

Rules:
1. Write down every letter of your name.
2. Then type a song that pops up in your mind in each letter of your name as the first letter.
3. Count the number of letters and tag that many people in your friends list.

Baba O'Riley - The Who
Right Here, Right Now - Van Halen
In My Life - The Beatles
Time Is On My Side - The Rolling Stones
Take it Easy - The Eagles
N (I CAN'T THINK OF ONE!!!)
Eminence Front - The Who
Young Lust - Pink Floyd

darkmistyday @ 2009-09-23T15:30:00

2009-09-23T20:15:33Z

I get lots of complaints at work. I'm rude, or inconsiderate, or arrogant according to most people. If any of these people actually knew me, they wouldn't say such things. A year ago I would have broke down and cried, but I'm pretty immune to it now. However, today I got the weirdest complaint in the entire history of my work career.

My boss told me that she had a complaint that someone in another department saw me walk out of the bathroom without washing my hands.

O.O

WTF?!?!?!? I couldn't help it; I started laughing! She looked a little ticked and said, "Do you think this is funny?" I said, "Yeah, it's hard not to laugh at the fact that someone would come and 'tell on me' like that over something so trivial and silly." She then explained that people didn't want to get swine flu and that she wanted to nip the problem in the bud. Still, I think that's a bit silly, don't the rest of you?

Fun times

2009-09-08T00:32:01Z

I stole this from ILoveKeithMoon and she apparently stole it from someone else, so I'm a thief and it's her fault :p

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, Zune, whichever you want, the list is long.)
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing.
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button.
6. Don't lie.

MY LIFE'S SOUNDTRACK:

1. Epic Prologue
Fixing a Hole - The Beatles
LOL

2. Birth
My Best Friends - The Pokemon Soundtrack
....I'm confused.

3. Childhood
Chop Suey - System of a Down

4. First Day of High School
Planet Schmanet, Janet - The Rocky Horrow Picture Show Soundtrack

5. School Bully
Cheap Cheap the Cooking Chicken - PaRappa the Rapper Soundtrack

6. The After School Fight
Amish Paradise - Weird Al Yankovic

7. Graduating High School
I Walk the Line - Johnny Cash

8. New Home
Lady - Styx

9. Creepy Neighbors
Butterfly Remix - DDR OST

10. Flashbacks
End of Small Sanctuary - Silent Hill 3 Soundtrack
Why is my whole life soundtracka?!?!?

11. Mental Breakdown
What's My Age Again? - Blink 182

12. Meeting An Old Friend
Brain Damage - Pink Floyd
That one's pretty accurate

13. Falling Asleep/ Having A Nightmare
With Arms Wide Open - Creed
Whoa, I forgot I had that on my iTunes!

14. A New Enemy
Tomorrow Never Knows - The Beatles

15. Final Battle
Killing in the Name Of - Rage Against the Machine
Finally, a good one!

16. Death of Enemy
Sunshine of Your Love - Cream
LOLOLOL

17. First Day of New Job
Happiness Is A Warm Gun - The Beatles

18. Starting College
My December - Linkin Park

19. Falling In Love
Who'll Stop the Rain - Creedance Clearwater Revival

20. Graduating College
The Red - Chevelle

21. Facing Your Demons
Living Dead Girl - Rob Zombie
Sweet!

22. Growing Old
Demons, Pills, Etc. - Velvet Revolver

23. Funeral
Seven Years - Norah Jones
I hope it's not in seven years!

Another stolen meme

2009-09-06T13:45:10Z

Have you ever lied to a teacher to get out of a deadline?
Only in college, lol

What kind of magazines do you read?
Cosmopolitan, though to be honest I'm getting bored with it

If you could see one band in concert right now, any band, dead or alive, which would it be?
The Who

What's really creepy?
Clowns :o

Name one odd item within five feet of you.
A medical textbook from the early 1900's

What's your current fandom/obsession/addiction?
Fanfiction! Though I've been obsessed with it for years

What are you listening to right now?
Crickets singing outside

What are you most excited for?
Later tonight :D

What websites do you always visit when you go online?
Yahoo, LiveJournal, FF.net

What was the last thing you bought?
Food om nom nom

What's you favorite season?
I like them all about evenly, but I suppose autum is my favorite

Does the weather affect your mood?
Sure does, especially when it starts getting dark earlier in the winter

What is your zodiac sign?
Taurus

Do you want to learn another language?
I am currently learning Japanese, American Sign, and Serbo-Croatian

5 things (not people) you can't live without?
Not including the basic essentials.....
1. Oxygen
2. Food
3. Drink
4.Music
5. Art

Do you have any siblings?
I have a half brother

What's something you'd like to say to someone right now?
I can't, it's too naughty

Do you have any pets?
Two cats :D

Got To Admit, It's Getting Better

2009-09-01T18:42:45Z

Things are looking up! My friend at work made me a copy of Lisztomania to replace the VHS that stopped working! YAY! That means that anyone else who needs a copy, I can make them one! Now the world is becoming a brighter place :D

Working on fanfiction is always a joy and I'm getting more work done, in addition to an interactive thing I'm doing for the website that Dren and I will have one day <3 I still haven't gotten any feedback from "Tilt" except from Dren, even though my hits on FF.net keep building. I'm hoping to get some feedback soon!

My friend let me borrow "The Kids Are Alright" and I watched it. The tape might as well have said "porn" because it made me . . . . whistful. Loves it! Also watched "Six Quick Ones." Same effect :D

But like I mentioned before, I have to admit, it's getting better!

Stolen from Dren!

2009-08-20T19:12:23Z

Pick a band/artist, and answer the questions using titles from their songs:

1. Choose a band/artist:
The Beatles

2. Are you male or female:
Girl

3. Describe yourself:
Paperback Writer

4. How do some people feel about you:
Run for Your Life

5. How do you feel about yourself:
Getting Better

6. Describe your ex boyfriend / girlfriend:
Day Tripper

7. Describe current boyfriend / girlfriend:
We Can Work It Out

8. Describe where you want to be:
In My Life

9. Describe how you live:
Happiness Is A Warm Gun

10. Describe how you love:
Here, There and Everywhere

11. What would you ask for if you had just one wish:
Love Me Do

12. Share a few words of Wisdom:
Let It Be

13. Now say goodbye:
Hello, Goodbye

Stolen from letsseeaction

2009-08-13T13:43:38Z

List your top ten artists from LAST.FM and answer questions about them

I don't use that, but I'll answer these anyway

1. Stone Temple Pilots
2. Velvet Revolver
3. The Who
4. The Beatles
5. Guns N' Roses
6. Rob Zombie
7. Led Zeppelin
8. Pink Floyd
9. Enya
10. Moby

What was the first song you ever heard by 6? Rob Zombie
Living Dead Girl, and it just got better from there

What is your favourite album of 8? Pink Floyd
Probably "The Dark Side of the Moon." I love all their music so it's hard to say for sure.

What is your favourite lyrics of 5? G N' R
"I'll never find anyone to replace you, guess I'll have to make it through, this time, oh this time, without you. I knew the storm was getting closer and the waves they get so high, seems everything we've ever known's here, I never wanted it to die."

How many times have seen each of your ten bands live?
Stone Temple Pilots - Once

What is your favourite song by number 7? Led Zeppelin
Hmm, another tough question. "Good Times, Bad Times" or "Over the Hills and Far Away."

Is there a song of 3 that makes you sad? The Who
A great deal of the songs from Tommy do. Mostly The Who just makes me horny.

What is your favourite song by 2? Velvet Revolver
"You Got No Right"

What is your favourite song by 9? Enya
"A Day Without Rain"

What is your favourite album by 1? Stone Temple Pilots
"Purple" or "Tiny Music . . ."

How did you get into 3? The Who
I grew up listening to them on the radio and my man likes them a lot too. Then, he let me watch Tommy and the rest is history.

What is your favorite song by 4? The Beatles
"In My Life," "Hello Goodbye" "Let it Be"

Which of the 10 has influenced you the most?
The Beatles first, and later Guns N' Roses

What is a good memory concerning 2? Velvet Revolver
The first time I heard them and realized that it was like STP and GNR combined was just magical

What is a good memory concerning 3? The Who
Taking care of my man and watching Tommy while he was sick, making out to the music, and recently, writing fanfiction about them.

Is there a song by 8 that makes you sad? Pink Floyd
"Us and Them" "Waiting for the Worms" "Time" But all make me sad in a good way, I guess. Nostalgic.

What is your favorite song of 1? Stone Temple Pilots
Big Empty, Interstate Love Song, Big Band Baby, Still Remains, Pretty Penny, and pretty much every song they've ever done

How did you become a fan of 10? Moby
This is the odd one of the bunch; well, and Enya. I got into Moby by listening to Porceline on Pure Moods 3 over and over after I heard it. Then I heard Southside. I love how soothing the music is. It takes me away when I hear it.

darkmistyday @ 2009-03-24T16:00:00

2009-03-24T20:29:45Z

1. Pick 20 of your favorite movies.
2. Go to IMDb and find a quote from each movie.
3. Post them here for everyone to guess.
4. Strike it out when someone guesses correctly, and put who guessed it and the movie

1. "The greatest gift and honor is having you for a daughter."

2. "Joy has a beaver?"

3. "Tear it up."

4. "Forgive me, your majesty. I'm a vulgar man, but I assure you my music is not."

5. "You're a jittery little thing, aren't you?"

6. "People in glass houses sink ships."

7. "So, Alex, are you still pretending to be an archaeologist?"

8. "It smelled like slow death and malaria."

9. "You can act like a man! What's the matter with you?"

10. "Wake up, number 37."

11. "Killing is bad-ong. From now on, I will stand for the opposite of killing: gno-dab."

12. "He was beginning to lose his Shpadoinkle." <--I may not have spelled that right.

13. "Tommy, can you hear me?"

14. "Lost in his own museum, huh?"

15. "I say we take off and nuke it from orbit; it's the only way to be sure."

16. Don't get me wrong, that's what "True Blue" is about."

17. To see the world, with eyes unclouded by hate."

18. "Open the pod bay door, Hal."

19. "I hope to God it will torture you to madness."

20. "Bounjouro, principesa!"

Almost a year, wow!

2009-03-19T16:33:23Z

It's been almost a year since my last post, and that got me thinking. Had I nothing worth writing about? How bizarre that I would even think that. This has been, by far, the most interesting year of my life! It has yielded some amazing things in the realm of creativity. So here's a month-by-month run-down of everything I've failed to mention:

JANUARY 2008: As a favor to BranMan, I went to Jimmy's house for the first time for the original Gavin S photoshoot for his movie, "Friends With Benefits." He had me playing the girlfriend of Jimmy's character and, because he and I are both into filmmaking, wanted the two of us to write, film and edit promotional material for his new movie. I didn't realize then that me and Jimmy would end up being such good friends a year later. This is, single-handedly, the most influential thing that could have happened to make my life the way it is now. Through Jimmy, I met every friend I have now. He is also the reason I was able to make my movie and enjoy writing and acting again. Brandon's simple request that I do a photoshoot changed my entire life. I also got hired at Walgreens this month, which to this day is the best job I ever had.

FEBRUARY: Not much happened this month that I can recall. While nothing of great importance took place, one of my favorite stories to tell happened. Me and Cody were at Red Lobster and we saw.....well, this story wouldn't translate well over the internet. Anyone who wants to hear it just let me know. This goes down in history for me as most uncomfortable observation ever.

MARCH: Formulated the idea and began the script for "Goth and the City." Did a few very general castings, nothing too crazy. I was also privy to be in the test audience for Jimmy's movie, "Gunther Toody's Happy Time Fun Show." Seeing that movie changed the way I thought about filmmaking forever.

APRIL: My birthday and Cody's! We had a joint birthday party and invited my new friends. I asked everyone who was invited to please ask if they wanted to bring a guest. Jimmy, without asking, brought Billy. I was a little peeved at first, but me and Billy ended up being best friends after just a few short months.

MAY: The new Indiana Jones movie came out!!!! I'd waited for years and was happy with the outcome <333 It wasn't as good as "The Last Crusade," but I still left the theater happy. GRADUATED COLLEGE! w00t!!!!!!!

JUNE: The first shots of "Goth and the City" are completed.

JULY: Instead of fireworks, me and Cody walked up and down the street stringing for everyone.

AUGUST: Jimmy's movie premier. Had a freakin' blast! He put me in charge of being photographer of the event.

SEPTEMBER: Lots of filming. Started new job that I don't like nearly as much so I can work full-time. Not much fun growing up :p

OCTOBER: Finished my Silent Hill costumes for the Con I didn't even get to go to, so me and my friends dressed up and wore them to the Halloween Festival at the Zoo. The event was for children, so you can imagine the stir we caused. We were nearly kicked out!

NOVEMBER: My nephew is born and Thanksgiving doesn't suck for the first time in at least ten years.

DECEMBER: My family finally has a Christmas where everyone doesn't fight, everyone gets what they want, and a generally good time is had by all.

Pretty good year! I hope this year is great too and I'm sure it will be. I have a movie premier of my own to look forward to and for the first time in years, good friends I can trust.

Freaky dream

2008-03-24T14:59:11Z

I had a dream last night that I had kinky, freaky, promiscuous sex with Malcolm McDowell. Not how he looks now though. How he looked in A Clockwork Orange, or Caligula. Not with his character but with him, just looking like himself from a long time ago. It was weird. We were at apartment working on something and he had friends there too, and all of a sudden in front of everyone he just grabs me, starts kissing me, and we have sex in front of them. It's odd because that's not something I'd do in real life, but still, that was a freakin' hot dream. Man, I'm horny.

It made me really happy to have a dream like that because most of my dreams are nightmares that take place at the end of time. I'm like, living in someone's basement and can't find food and can't make noise because then someone will find me and kill me. I tend to be a happy person who is generally optimistic, but there is an undeniable dark part of myself. And I can't deny that I love that part of me dearly. All of my poetry, stories, and most of my interests stem from the fact that I am very dark. But I enjoy being happy and I am most of the time. I am realitstic to a fault and that's where some of the darkness comes from. That's probably why my so-called "Goth-phase" has lasted ten years.

But because I do like to be happy, I am grateful to have discovered the rave scene. I like how the people all love each other and care for one another. Raver friends tend to be genuine and I LOVE that trait in people. The music had a steady beat and that to me represents balance. And when I'm sad or upset, techno music in general screams a little louder than my pain does. Pop music says, "Everything is okay." Rock music says, "Everything is certainly not okay, but you can change it." Techno says, "Let's try not to think about being sad for a while and have a good time!" And that's why I like it. I can't change everything, but I can try to have fun once in a while : )

I realize that I jumped around a lot today, but it needed to be said. And until the day I can drown my sorrows in some good beats and string to my heart's content, there's always . . . .

. . . . . Malcolm.

Kandi-coated happiness and Mall Shenannigans

2008-03-20T23:12:09Z

Floan-flavored kandi is soooo sweet! Have a taste:

I met my friend Jimmy at the mall today and we took one of those photobooth pics together, where the four crappy pics print out, you know??? He works at Hot Topic at another mall and offered to get the clothes I wanted with his discount! w00t! He's getting me the new Indiana Jones shirt and also a shirt with Hello Kitty on it. It ROCKS OUT!!! It's got a name tag on it that says Hello and the underneath part says Kitty. I will be sure to post pics when I get it, it's the coolest shirt of all time!!!

JOLT!!!!

2008-03-17T16:00:58Z

So me and my boyfriend had a really fun weekend together. Here's what we did:

Friday we just hung out and cuddled, ate pizza and watched I Eat Poop (my friend's cable access show.) Saturday while I was at work he went shooting and then met up with me at my house. I had to go submit some of my pictures and get posters made from them for my friend Brandon. He's making a movie and we needed some posters made and figured I'd help him by getting him my discount :)

My boyfriend noticed that we had JOLT on sale there at work. I kept making bad jokes, asking if it was V-Jolt from Resident Evil. Video game humor. I'm so lame. So I used my discount and we bought two. Boy, was that fun. We split one and drank it on an empty stomach. I have never in my life been so wired! It's the closest I've ever been to being hopped up on cocaine in my life. The radio played "Renegades of Funk" and I started dancing in the car. I felt like I was dancing really good, but of course, I probably wasn't, haha. I was singing really loud too. T'was quite fun. Then he found a cd in his car of Angel One music and popped it in his CD player. It never sounded so good! We went to Book and Music Exchange and walked around for what seemed like forever, trying to get it out of our systems. Went cam back to my house and watched Constantine which I'd never seen. That was pretty cool. I kept getting scared because my heart felt like it was gonna beat out of my chest even when I was sitting still. Nevertheless, I can't wait until next weekend to drink the other can, maybe we'll try to down two of them : )

Forget making Salvia illegal, they should investigate Jolt first, haha.

I'M SO FREAKING EXCITED!!! I could be going to my first real show soon! My friend Mika's friend organized a big show at Bulldog Cafe that went over very well, and now he's trying to get one together at a bigger venue. And trust me, I'll be there. And I will post all kinds of pics! Man, I can't wait!

Snow Day! Part Two

2008-03-10T01:02:36Z

So me and my boyfriend went out to ride his four-wheeler through all the snow we got. He said I looked like a terrorist with my face all covered up. I not only agree, I think it's pretty funny :p

Snow Day!

2008-03-08T16:35:51Z

So here in the Ohio Valley we get some really, really weird weather. A few days ago I didn't even wear a jacket outside. Yesterday, we got 8 inches of snow! I love snow so I can't complain. It's too beautiful!!!!

I took a few pics to show everyone but they really don't do it justice. Here's one of my street -

Here's a self-pic of me in the snow:

Needless to say, I'll be staying in today : )